For my best friend.

How much can a heart withstand?

How much can your heart hold its stand without tiring? The heart tires too, you know. But I’m sure yours wouldn’t give up that easily. I know that you will, and you really will find a way to bear it all. I know that you will be the strong person that you always have been. You will still look at the brighter side of all the things. But the heart tires too, you know.

Yes, even yours. 

It will tire too, it will doubt too. It will yield to the circumstances too. It cannot remain strong if nothing gives it a reason to be strong anymore. When it eventually feels that it is holding on for nothing, the long enduring heart will start to fear that there’s nothing out there for it.

And yes, you will cry. And when that time comes, I will be there. I will listen to you without speaking a word. I will just listen to you. And when you let all your hurt out, I will tell you that everything’s gonna be okay because I’m sure that they will be. You may not think at that moment that I mean it, but assure you, I will mean every word I say because I’m sure of them. You will be okay. I know you will be. You’ve always been okay right?

But I know it wouldn’t be that easy to go back to who you were. That’s why we will help you. We will help you get back all the pieces of yourself and help you up again. We will make you smile again. We will make you talk again. You know, those jokes and sarcastic comments and the tag-ligaynon (tagalog-hiligaynon) way you always do, they will all come back, I assure you.

We will start to build your future again without basing it on anyone but yourself. We will mold it to the way that you want it to be. Of course we will be there, you know, in your future. We will still piss you off, and never take you seriously and laugh at your mishaps, we, your best friends. Because that’s what we always do right? That’s what we are, who we are. We’ve always been there.

So, whatever happens, don’t fear that you will be left alone, because you’ll never be. 

Much love,

Badj.

P.S. I know this won’t make you feel any better hehe. But you know, just in case. 

P.P.S. I love you, always.