AWWWWHHHHHHH!! Was so kilig when I saw this photo! Little sister getting this invite after years and years of being a sulok girl. Hahahaha!

I was young, you said. I didn’t know anything about life yet, you said. You didn’t want to take anything away from me, you said. And you took one more step away from me, and another, and another. But you see, I don’t think any of those matters. For yes, I was young and I may have not known anything about life yet and you not wanting to take anything away from me might have been right for me but what am I without you? Haven’t you ever thought that maybe I would have wanted to spend my youth with you? Or I may have wanted to know things about life from you? Or maybe you wouldn’t really take anything away from me if you just stayed with me because in the first place, I knew that you would have given me everything that I needed and even more? 

You stayed away; walked out of my life because you were bad for me, you said. But you know what? You might have been just the best thing that happened to me if you just stayed beside me. 

I miss you and I know that you’re right for me, that we are right. Please come back to me, my love.

Ayokong tinatawag ako ng names other than my own (i.e. babe, baby, darling, darling baby, honey, sweet, sweetie pie, honey pie, apple pie, apple tart, blueberry tart, blueberry cake, blueberry cheesecake, icebox cake, upside down cake, etc, etc.) pero sige, kung mapilit ka, pwede bang Buko na lang itawag mo sakin? :”>

P.S. pasensya na po kayo.

Ako lang ba ang naiiyak sa song na’to?

“Maybe I can’t stop the downpour, but I will always join you for a walk in the rain.”

You by the light is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong you’re the thing that’s right
Finally made it through the lonely to the other side

You said it again, my heart’s in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I’m at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark,
And I’m in love and I’m terrified.
For the first time and the last time
In my only life

This could be good
It’s already better than last
And nothing’s worse than knowing
You’re holding back
I could be all that you needed
If you let me try

You left. And no matter how hard I try and push myself to forget, I just can’t. Your smile and your anger, your laugh and your tears, your joys and your sorrows, they just won’t leave me alone. Every second of my everyday is spent struggling to come to terms with planning to move on from the pain and the hole you brought me. You left me alone. You left me with nothing but memories which slowly kill my being. I fought hard, you knew that. Now, look at me. What do you see? My life is a big black void. All I can think of is the way your hand felt in mine, the way your eyes danced when we were together, the bed we once shared, the stubbornness, the childish games and you. Of course, you. What went wrong? We were once happy, weren’t we? I fought hard, you knew that. I tried hard. Why was I not enough? Did you just grow tired of me? Will I ever forget you? Will I ever forget us? Maybe, it will take a little more time to forget you and the feelings I have for you. Maybe a little more time and a little more beer to drain these thoughts of you from my mind. Maybe a little more time to move on from you. But oh, who am I kidding? I guess I never will. How could I, when the best thing that ever happened to me so far was you? It will always be you. Yeah, I guess I will never be able to forget you. 

Yung feeling na kilig na kilig ka…

Pero yung object of your kiligness di man lang alam na nag-eexist ka pala. Ganyan na lang lagi no? Nakita mo siya, na-attract ka instantly, lagi mong iniisip, kilig-kilig pero siyempre alam naman nating lahat na ang kahahantungan ng lahat ng ito ay isang malaking ARAY. Maliban na lang kung magiging super lucky ka at nagkakakilala kayo at nagkagustuhan edi happy ending yun. Pero kadalasan, ang nangyayari talaga e yung kabaligtaran, yung one-sided lang. Yung ikaw lang ang iniisip siya, ikaw lang ang kinikilig dahil sa kanya, ikaw lang ang humahanga sa kanya at higit sa lahat, napapasaya ka niya nang hindi niya alam. Masaya ka ngayon pero masasaktan ka in the end. Pero hindi ibig sabihin nun na kapag alam mong masasaktan ka, ayaw mo na. Lahat naman napagdaraanan yan e. Lahat naman at some point, masasaktan at masasaktan din. Kaya wag kang matakot. Alam mo mang masasaktan ka sa bandang huli, panghawakan mo lang na andiyan lang din out there ang taong papawi sa lahat ng sakit na napagdaanan mo sa nakaraan. Enjoy lang muna. Bata ka pa, dapat pagdaanan ang parehong kilig at sakit na yan.